011And I take the first step of a Million more…..

posted by Jiggy on August 29th, 2006

just less than 12 hours till my flight leaves. I sit here a mix of very powerful emotions. Excited. Nervous. Confused. Sad. Worried. I don’t know how to quantify the total these feelings have brought in me but I know that I have no idea what to do about them yet. Many things in my life decided to come to a head in the same month and it has really hit me very hard. Too much stuff to list here and not enough time to sleep if I do. I just hope my time away with good friends will help me to get a better idea of what to do and where to go. I don’t have many paths to take but the one I want to take is the one that will not turn out well and leave me even more isolated then I am already. ANd the others are scary and unknown. I hope that by the time I return home I have a nice light to help show me the way. I am not asking for total nirvana here, or even which path I should take. I am just looking for information to better help make my choice. I hope they way back to where I feel my life should be magically opens and things make sense. But every journey towards knowledge starts with only one small step forward. I don’t know where this journey will take me or what I will learn in the end….. I just know it will be a great adventure along the way.

So with that I leave you know. I will return in a week. Those of you who have it, know how to reach me.