027Thoughts on Dragoncon

posted by Jiggy on July 10th, 2008

I was looking over the message boards(which as anyone can tell you I don’t do enough) and it made me realize something about me and my relationship with Dragoncon. I rely on the con a lot in my life. It is my main vacation every year and my main interaction with many of the people I consider friends. Many of these friends I only get to see for that one magical week. I am able to keep in contact with some of these friends through the rest of the year but my schedule makes it impossible to keep up with all of them and even some of them(whose identities will remain anonymous) that I try and stay in touch with flat ignore me. So you can see why I love this week so much. Also, it is still 7 weeks away and I am already thinking about it almost everyday.

The second thought that came to me was a slightly odd one. It finally hit home that I won’t be the guy running Harris anymore. I feel that a form of identity has been given away with this much needed break. I don’t quite know how to handle this. I love that I have an opportunity to try something new but I wonder will I be anything other than a wallflower. Like I was my first year. Running Harris gave me an identity at con. It gave me something to do. A place that I know my presence mattered.

I don’t understand this duality in my head. I can’t wait to go but I don’t really know what I will do. Even if I do nothing it will be worth it to see everyone, I just don’t know if I will feel I earned my badge. We will find out I guess.